Life has gotten in the way of me posting. The past 2 days have actually been busy and emotionally draining.
I have a lot on my plate reguarding Alexa. We have a day of appointments tomorrow, and I have about a million things concerning me with her.
Its too much to go into tonight. If you can keep her in your thoughts and prayers, and I pray for good news tomorrow. I can’t tell if my upset is just in my head, or my intuition. There are always FEARS and riskย of her cancer coming back. We have had a rough few days, and will get a full workup tomorrow. I feel (or think I feel) in my heart that she will be OK. I know she is in God’s care. Sometimes that is hard to just give it up to him and have trust.
These days are never easy. There are possible otherย reasons for things, I just always have to wait
UGH! I just want to scream or cry. Not sure which. I think I just need some sleep. I know this may not even make sense to anyone but this is where I am at today.
Till tomorrow.
144 Responses for "Life"
We will be thinking positive thoughts too.
We all hope the everything is okay with Alexa…. Your strong… everything will be okay!
Oh Lauren….
You are making perfect sense to me, if that’s any consolation. {{{HUGS}}}
You and Alexa have been though some really rough times before and God has always lead you through them. He won’t leave you now nor never.
Lots or prayers and good thoughts are going up for you. I pray that your questions will be answered tomorrow, that the tests will all come back with good news, and that your worries and fears will be eased, if only a little.
If you need to talk, you know where to find me, okay? Try and get some sleep. Your “psf prayer warriors” are on this, okay? I’ll be thinking of you and Alexa. โฅ
Hugs and Love,
Renee
my thoughts and prayers are with you, your family and Alexa.
Ang
********Lauren********
I pray a great covering of peace over you, Lauren. May you feel the presence of the Lord Almighty as you go through your day tomorrow. May He lift you up when you feel down, hold you when you feel like you are going to burst, comfort you in times of uncertainty and turn your face to His as He whispers “I am always with you, I will never leave you…I have not forgotten you nor what you have been through. I have a great plan and am working that to fruition. Remain in me and I will lead and guide you and comfort you. I am your rock on which can stand. Fear not for I am with you. Turn to me and give me all of your troubles, all of your fears, all of your heartache. I love you.”
AWW!! Great big HUGS to you and your family. We are all keeping you in our thoughts and prayers for good news!! Stay Strong Dear!
Jewels
xoxo
Renee is right Lauren – we’re all praying for you and Alexa. You’re such a good mom – it’s your job to “over-worry”. Be strong and know that we’re with you.
Hugs,
Julie
The unknown is always frightening–and wondering if the known bad is returning is even worse! We will all hope and pray that your fears are based on exhaustion! Best of everything through the next few days.
God bless you for all you have been through already!!! I will most definitely have a place in my prayers for you and your precious little girl!! Best of luck tomorrow!!
my prayers are with you. hang in there. you are strong, and taking some time to work through feelings and fears will help you in the long run. Take it easy. spend some time together. share your love. it will give you more strength.
k
It makes sense to me. Try screaming in the car and you might find release into tears. God gave us tears to see the rainbow.
Sometimes both screaming and crying is the best medicine. Your family is in my thoughts, and I hope you get good news tomorrow. Never apologize for the stress you feel when it comes to the health of a child. Anything you are feeling right now is valid and understandable. Please know whatever happens you have the love and prayers of your “cyberfriends”.
You and your family are in my prayers. I have not been where you are but I do have kids and know that having them is not easy on our nerves. I hope that you get good news and what you are worried about is just normal kid stuff. Please keep us updated on what you find out.
Saying prayers for you and Alexa right now Lauren . . . for a good night sleep and for a great outcome tomorrow!
Our thoughts and prayers are with you and Alexa. God is watching over you all. Gail S.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family Lauren. Take Care.
I am thinking of you and Alexa (and your entire family). I will keep praying for the best outcome!! If you need anything you know you can just ask, email, vent, whatever you need! Sending HUGE virtual hugs!!
-Jen
I’ll be thinking of you and hoping for the best! You’ve been through a lot and you’re all very strong. Remember, positive thinking!
Lauren I am thinking of you and will say a prayer for Alexa!
Stay strong
Love Ana
Lauren,
I’ll be thinking of you and your family tomorrow. The unknown is always so frightening. Things are always worse when you are tired, so try to get some rest. Alexa has been such a trooper. Hang in there, and from the looks of things, you have alot of people praying for you. Keep us posted on Alexa and know we are thinking of you.
Debbie
Lauren,
Hang in there. I know you will- this is one of the things you do best. It must be really “old”, and I am sure you are so tired of dealing with this! But some things we just have no control over. However, (and I know you know this) GOD is in control! And He will always have you- and Alexa- right there in the palm of His hand. Please keep trying to give it all over to Him. You troubles and worries may seem too big for you at times- but they are never too big for Him!
It is interesting to see your post tonight; Caroline just asked me about an hour or so ago about Alexa and how she is doing! We will be sure to say extra prayers for her tonight.
Know you have lots of people who love and support you and who will keep you and your precious Alexa in prayer.
Sending big (((hugs))) too!
Lauren, I am not sure if you read the post I posted about My Son Tucker’s Health update when you visited my blog today to check out the Saturday Sketch, but I totally get where you are at!
We have recently been thru a cancer scare, and it is horrible. Especially being a nurse I new all the “what if’s” and that made it worse. He was diagnosed with Transient Hyperphosphatasia which is supposed to be benign, but a lot of stuff I looked up talked about Cancer. I was a total wreck inside!
I sent out an e-mail to all family, friends, and Stamping Buddies to ask for Prayer and thoughts for him. We got so much Prayer I think if calmed my nerves and helped me to see it differently and hand it over to God!
We got some good news this week, but I know where you are right now!
I will say a prayer for both you and your mind set thru this difficult time, and for Alexa that God keep her precious little body in his arms and guide her thru this as he sees fit!
Hang in there Girl I know all your Stamping Followers are praying for you!
I hope you are asleep now, and that God is taking your worry and fears away. May you have a good day Wednesday, and so many of us are praying that all is well with Alexa. It’s horrible to go through these difficult times, but no one does it better than YOU. You are amazing. Stay strong, and keep getting rest. That and God’s care will sustain you! ๐ Big HUGS from me to you…
I understand the scream/cry thing very well. Both are good.
When I got “older” and stresses on the family were affecting me too, my mom would say “we need to scream, ok?” and she and I would count to three and screeeeeam! ๐ It helps!
People are definitely praying for you and your family. Good luck tomorrow.
Hugs to you Lauren! I am saying prayers for you and Alexa and hope everything is fine. Take care and breathe deeply! Hugs to you!
If quantity helps…you and Alexa (and your whole family) are in so many people’s thought and prayers right now. You bring so much joy and happiness into our lives through your beautiful creations, I only hope that you know how much we all appreciate you and feel for you in your tough times. Hang in there and know that so many people are thinking of you and praying for you. Good luck, Kristie
Lauren….Love you. Such hardships to bear sometimes. Your cross is very heavy, but your spirit is so light. You are such a wonderful inspiration to everyone around you. We love you very much.
Beck
Just letting you know that you are being lifted in prayer from all over the world.
Warm Sicilian Hugs,
Justine
Lauren,
I completely understand your worries and anxiety, but know that a special prayer is being said even well into the middle of the night for your Alexa. Just take a big deep breath and let GOD take your worries away.
You hang in there and if you need anything please shout!
Alicia Weiman
Lauren,
Alexa and your family are in my prayers. Keep the faith-God will help you through it!
Kim Stevens
Lauren, it’s just not fair that you have to look out for these signs and worry. You know I’ll be thinking of both of you all day. Joan
Sending up prayers for Alexa, today.
Hugs, Lauren. We PSFs are alert and praying for all of you.
Oh Lauren, we’ll be keeping Alexa and your whole family in our prayers. I hope you get good news today!
God bless you and Alexa, hugs and prayers are coming your way from Chicago.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and Alexa. Hugs Ann Lind
All the PSF’s have you & Alexa covered in prayers. Just remember, “I can do ALL things through Christ which strengthens me!” He’s got your entire family in the palm of his hands & He’s not going to drop you!
PSF Hugs,
Amy
Ohhh – it makes sense. I am praying for you. Big hug.
Lydia
Understand Blue
I am praying for Miss Alexa and you, my sweet friend. Your emotions and fears are perfectly normal – afterall, you are a mom.
{{{HUGE HUGS FROM OHIO}}}
Sending my prayers, Lauren! And LOTS of hugs too!!
sending positive thoughts your way!!
mwah
Good thoughts, prayers, and lots of hugs heading your way today. You go right ahead and scream or cry or both if you need to. You’ve got lots of shoulders around you.
Our thoughts and prayers are with you.
Sending prayers & ((hugs)) your way from Ohio.
((((HUGS)))) My Prayers and thoughts are with you love..
oh dear lauren I pray that all is well.
big hugs
Maria
{{hugs}} and prayers for Alexa, you & the rest of the family. Whatever life throws at you God will keep you close and get you through. But I’m praying for a GOOD REPORT! When life would get stressful when my oldest sister and I worked & commuted together we would crank up the radio, roll up the windows & scream at the top of our lungs – it was such a good release! Just an idea – other times crying is the best. You do what you have to do. God will do the rest.
This all makes perfect sense to me, Lauren. Not a day goes by but what your entire family is in my prayers and today I will say extra ones. Positive thoughts!!!
Cheryl
Will be thinking of you today, and praying that everything is ok with Alexa. Sending you positive thoughts and many hugs!!!!!!!!!
Donna G
Lauren, Alexa and the entire family will be in my thoughts today. Your entry made complete sense to me too. Praying you receive the answers you need today.
Hugs to you and Alexa, my friend! I’ve been still praying for her every night with Wyatt, and will continue to do so. Keep us updated on what’s going on with her as you’re able.
I’m praying that everything will be fine with Alexa’s test. Stay strong.
Lauren,
You are both in my prayers. Hang in there!
Oh, Lauren—a mother’s intuition is always the best thing to listen to. Noone knows your kids better than you. I pray that all is well for Alexa and sending out hugs and well wishes for your whole family.
hugz,
Suzanne Dean
Lauren-
I have been reading your blog for a while but I *think* this is my first comment! I also have a daughter that battled leukemia (AML) and I know EXACTLY how you feel. I have done the same thing: obsessed over a bruise, a long nap, a lingering cold, the hue of her skin…all of it. Remember that the spirit of fear does not come from God. And remember that what we ask for in prayer is given to us if we just BELIEVE. And one more thing: it does get easier. Trust me. My dd has been cancer-free for almost 7 years—and she’s only 8 years old! You can’t worry it away…give it to God and don’t take it back!
Prayers for peace and a good doctor’s report! Update when you can!
Lauren, Alexa and you are both in my thoughts and prayers!!! BIG HUGS!!!
Lauren,
I just want you to know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I can’t imagine what you are going through everyday with Alexa. I hope everything turns out just fine. Take care.
Oh Lauren, I just saw Renee’s note about Alexa’s testing and came here right away. Prayers have already been said. Cry it out girlfriend and get the stress out. God is in control and will take care of you and Alexa.
I hope you awoke to a sunny day today, Lauren, and all your news for Alexa turns out to be positive. It is so hard when your child has a problem you are powerless to fix. Add me to the group of well-wishers offering prayers and positive thoughts as we await your update that Alexa is doing well.
oh lauren, thoughts and hugs for you and your family!
More thoughts and prayers for you and Alexa (and the rest of the clan)…
Hang in there…
I will pray for your sweet girl and for all of you.
God Bless.
Thinking of you, Alexa, and the rest of the family during this time. Our prayers are with you!!!
God Bless!!!
Lauren, I say scream and cry. Let it out. I have no idea what is going on but I pray it isn’t what you think. Alexa is in my thoughts and prayers, along with you and the rest of your family. I hope things get better for you, and know that all of your “fans” are here for you. Always, Kristen
remember what a tough little girl you have
You can count on my prayers for Alexa….and you!
2Timothy 1:7 “For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (or fear…..my addition), but a spirit of power, love, and self-discipline.”
God is with you every step of the way. He longs to lift the burdens from your shoulders and the fear from your heart. Alexa will be allright for He loves her more than you.
BIG HUGS and MIGHTY PRAYERS!
Prayers and hugs coming your way today and always, Lauren.
saying a prayer now for Alexa and your whole family!
hugs to you;D
Lauren, you know if God will’s you to it, He will bring you through it. Never,Never give up hope. You and your family have been entered into an international prayer wheel, that goes continually around until we say everything is fine. Hugs to you all. MaryAnn
Oh Lauren, I pray you get good news today!
Trust in God… He will never let you down! My hugs and prayers coming your way!
Prayers and hugs for you!
Lauren,
Please note that Alexa is in my thoughts and prayers. I think us moms always think worse than it really is. Alexa is a strong girl, and you will get back positive news.
if there is anything i could do please let me know.
big hugs to you.
charna
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family!
Lauren,
You are such an amazing person. Please know that you and your darling family are in my thoughts and prayers.
My thoughts and prayers are with you, your family, and especially Alexa. Stay strong.
Sending prayers to you and Alexa right now! As well as a BIG HUG!!!!
Hugs and prayers to all of you! You are in my thoughts.
Lauren, I will be praying for you and Alexa continuously today.
Thinking lots of positive thoughts for Alexa today. Keeping you in my thoughts, too. Fingers crossed that all tests come out with good results.
my thoughts and prayers are with you. You are very strong and god will never give you anthing that you can not handle. God bless and I know he will fill you with strength and faith.
OM Gosh Lauren-I wish I could come right up to NH and help out…I’m sorry you are so worried. I will pray that all is ok – and that whatever it is thats concerning you is for other, less serious reasons.
PLEASE CALL ME IF YOU NEED ANYTHING – even if it’s to vent, or take your mind off of things for a bit – you can listen to the girls act like animals ๐
Love you – hang in there {{{HUGS}}} for you and Alexa
Love,
Me
Oh Lauren, I have your family in my thoughts and prayers! Big hugs to you all and all the best for a clean doctors report for Alexa tomorrow/today:-)
My thoughts and prayers are with you!
Lauren, I am so sorry to hear this! I will be praying for you and your family. I hope this just turns out to be nothing serious. Hugs!
Got you in my thoughts and prayers Lauren, and hey go ahead and scream and cry if you feel like it! {{HUGS}}
Just a note to let you know that I’m praying for you, your family, and the situation.
Prayers being lifted for you, Alexa and all who love you.
Hey, Lauren
When you get the chance to read these posts, scan the times that they were posted. You and Alexa and your family were “bathed in prayer” the whole night through, and the prayer continues today. I love that about this blog!
There’s someone reading it almost continually!
You are truly blessed, not only by God, but by your amazing cyber buddies.Your faith so far has been a wonderful witness to God’s faithfulness in your lives.
Keep the faith, Dear One.
Love, LouAnne
(((Lauren))) I’m sorry that you are so worried about Alexa right now but I’m sure all will be okay…keep the faith. You know I’m thinking of you all and will be praying for a good outcome.
It’s okay to scream or cry…let it out…it’s no good to you all bottled up inside….that is enough to bring you to pieces.
Sending BIG hugs to you!!
You make perfect sense, Lauren! A mother’s heart is such a tender, loving, burden bearing, and protective thing when it comes to our kids. I pray you will sense the Lord’s peace over you in the midst of this storm. “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, shall guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus” Phil 4:6-7 Remember God is our refuge and our strength and He doesn’t ask us to go things alone – take His hand and let Him touch you in the innermost depths of your being with a love that transcends all understanding.
Lauren, God is with you, He knows your every thought, prayer, and heartbeat. Stay with Him in prayer, He’ll see Alexa, you, and your family through this, have faith! My prayers are with you.
Lauren,
You and Alexa are in my prayers right now. I hope and pray everything goes Ok with the test and results.
Sending your way a lot of HUGS.
God bless
Giovana
Many thoughts and prayers going your way my dear!
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
You and your family are in my thoughts. I hope that the results come back fine. Good luck!
Hang in there kiddo!! As much as you want to protect your little girl, she is in HIS hands. I know it’s hard to let go but…..Just hang in there…Hugs from California…
Alexa, you, and your lovely family are in our prayers. Keep the faith. You’ve been such a strong figure in this child’s life. God bless and try to keep us posted when you can.
I pray for the peace and comfort only God can give you to get you through rough times like these.
virtual hugs and real prayers being sent your way…
Praying for Alexa and you. Hoping you feel His arms around you all!
You and Alexa are in my thoughts and prayers!
Dear Lauren, hope that this doesn’t sound so repetitive, but I am praying for you and know first hand that “cry/scream” stuff. I pray right now for the Holy Spirit to comfort and bring peace to you, as only He can!! Love, Nancy
Thinking lots of positive thoughts for Alexa.
You and your family are in my prayers.
hugs
Monica
I will be keeping you, Alexa and your family in my prayers.
The unknown can be scary and sometimes it is hard to give it totally over to Christ, however, he already knows and he is in control and he will hold all of you up and surround you with his peace and his love. Trust in the power of Christ. Karen
Lauren you, Alexa and your family will be in my prayers and I hope all of our prayers will bring you some comfort.
Debbie/Phx AZ
our thoughts and prayers are with you, Alexa and the rest of the family – may the Lord give you comfort and peace.
The Lord will never give you more than you can handle. But, sometimes he gets so close to full it can be frightening. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
I’m sending lots of prayers and love for you, Alexa and your family!! Always remember Mom’s intuition is the best thing you have, so if you’re worried about something, then go with your gut. I hope all goes well with the tests and Alexa is fine. Many, Many, Many Hugs!!
(((Hugs))) to you Lauren. I am sorry you are going through this. I will keep you, Alexa and your family in my prayers.
our prayers are with you, Alexa and your family, hope all goes well.
Sending you prayers and positive thoughts that everything turns out just fine.
I’m sending lots of prayers for Alexa and for you. Hang in there — big hugs!!
Praying for you and Alexa!!! Hugs!!!
Take courage and keep positive, the Lord is there with you and your family!! Whispering wee little prayers for Alexa!
There is love and harmony around you so hang in there and the Lord will take you on his path for you! Hug, love and prayers, I know how you feel when you say you cannot sleep! so take care and feel the presence of the Lord around you and your family! All the Best for tomorrow!
Lauren you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope all goes well and you find out from the Dr. that all is ok.
Blessings to you and your family,
Cynde
Hang in there. I’ll be praying.
I am sending you a HUGE hug! I hope and pray everything turns out ok. I just found out some scary news regarding my lil guy yesterday also so I honestly know where your coming from. Be strong…you and your family are in my prayers.
Thinking only the best!
Praying for Alexa’s health and strength for you and your family.
Lauren~I am sending lots of hugs and prayers to Alexa, you, and your family. Trust in God and he will take care of you. Keep us posted.
Oodles of prayers coming your way that all is well!
Lauren…. your Stampin “family” is praying for you and Alexa…. you are right it is all in “gods Hands” and he will only give what you can handle…. you are a GREAT mother and everything will work out…. Hugs
Melissa
Prayers sent for Alexa and your family. ((Lauren))
Dear Lauren,
I know we don’t know each other except in the land of SCS. I don’t want to intrude in your privacy…I just want to share a verse that gives me strength during difficult times.
“Trust ye in the Lord forever, for the LORD JEHOVAH is everlasting strength” Isiah 26:4. I hold on the that promise with both hands. Lifting your family and your little one up in prayer.
I know how hard it is at times to just leave it all up to God and trust he will do what is best. Will pray all will be fine!
lauren, thank you for your honesty! my heart and prayers go out to you and your family…although your creations are fabulous, this heartfelt post means just as much…God has a plan, trust in Him even when it is hard!
chelle
Let go ~ Let God
Small words, big thoughts, my prayers, deep breaths, think how much you are adored!
{{{{HUGS}}}} and prayers!!
{{{hugs}}} and prayers for all of you–and especially for good news with the testing.
Sending strength, support and prayers your way.
Hi Lauren,
Wow, with all of these prayers coming your way, Alexa will be in good hands. (God’s). I will surely include your family in my prayers. I find that sleep is the best medicine and hope it helps you. I pray that everything will be fine. Bless you, Jeanne
I know that you have been through so much and I just want you to know that your family will be in my prayers. {{hugs}}
You & your family are in my thoughts & prayers…I am sooo sorry to hear that you are having a tough day.
Know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. (((Hugs)))
Sending you hugs. I have not posted before but I check in daily. I love your projects and I often laugh and cry with you. I believe you have the strength to get through.
Lauren,
We will be praying for you. Trust in God!
Blessings,
I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. I check your blog everyday. I don’t know you personally but from what I read and see, you seem like a very strong women and such a wonderful mother. You inspire me to be those things. Try to get some rest.
God bless you!
Missy
Your family is always in our prayers. You are an amazing person with all that you do and all that you have on your plate you still find time to make our day with your blog entry.
You, Alexa and the rest of your sweet family are in my prayers. May God bless you all.
You don’t know me but I receive your mails of cards every day. When I knew abaut Alexa, my heart was brooken. From that day, I pray God for her and her health. My english is not so good, my family translates to me the mails, but today i didn’t wait for them. Plese forgive my english. I just want to tell you that here in Mรฉxico We are praying for Alexa.
I want to add my thoughts and prayers for you and your sweet Alexa too. You make perfect sense to many people. Anyone with a heart! Hugs for your whole family.
Dear friend,
I want you to know you are in my heart and prayers tonight, and I will certainly hold Alexa and your family in the Light. May you get the rest you need, and God’s abiding Love touch each of your hearts, and grant you Health and Peace.
Julie
You and Alexa will be in my prayers.
Glenda
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